It Begins...

Ah, yes.  The shopping season has begun in full swing now.  Christmas is right around the corner and everyone is out and about getting what they need for it.  Black Friday, I guess, was CRAZY!  Me, I stayed home and didn't do anything, well I did put up the Christmas things.  Our little tree looks so cute.  Nadia loves to just sit in her swing and start at the lights on the tree.
  I will not go out on Black Friday.  People are wayyy to crazy. 
I saw people fighting for an XBOX 360 at Walmart on the News and told myself, I will never be like that ever. 
Yes, I like a good bargain but I will not go out and deal with that madness. 

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Well my Thanksgiving was decent.  We spent it at Stephen's parents house.  We went over there and watched the Packers kill the Lions.  It was a close game there for a min but they beat em.  We are now 11-0.  Still UNDEFEATED!

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Now we are just sitting around and watching the world go by.  The cold weather is in full swing here in WI.  The low tonight is in the 20s and the high was in the 30s.  yulp, time to get out the winter clothes and space heaters! 

Happy Thanksgiving!

Hey Yall!  Its been so long since I have wrote a blog about anything.  I have been so busy with Nadia and trying to get the house back to normal that I have no free time.  The free time I do have is for sleeping and when Im not sleeping then I am taking care of the baby. 

Anyways.  

It's Thanksgiving!  So, I thought that I would write and tell everyone what I am thankful for.

1.  I am Thankful for the roof over my head.
2.  I am Thankful for the food in my belly because there are people out there that don't have that.
3.  I am Thankful for the car that drives.  It may not run great but its still working.
4.  I am Thankful for the meds that I take everyday to help me feel better and the doctors that help me along the way also.
5.  I am Thankful for the few friends that I have.  I love you all and wish you Blessings.
6.  I am Thankful for Stephen.   Without him I wouldn't have a lot of the things that I cherish.
7.  Last and formost I am Thankful for my Daughters and my Family.  I miss you all very much and I wish my Family the biggest Blessings out there. 

I hope that everyone has a great and fun day!  

Also PACKERS PLAY TODAY!  Woohoo! 

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Another thing.  My Cousin Over at My Discovered Thoughts is having as Contest for the sweetest looking Felt Buddy!  Click that Link above and go and ENTER today!  :)

Felt Buddy Contest!

Hey Everyone!  

My Lovely cousin Nikki over at My Discovered Thoughts is having a contest for the cutest felt Buddy EVER!  So yall should click on the Link above and go and ENTER today!  

I hope everyone has a WONDERFUL holiday weekend!

Starting New.

Today is the 12th of November and the first day of a new kind of life for me.  I started my medication today.  I am going to stick with this kind.  It doesnt make me like a zombie and gives me energy.  It doesn't make me feel sick either.  I am less grouchy and seem to be in a better mood today.  I know that it is going to take a few weeks for it to really kick in but I can already feel it working.  I have been really down and out of it for such a long time that i think that is all that I have known.  So with this med that im taking its making me feel it fast. 

just being cute

Well,  Nadia had her first taste of that rice cereal.  She was having a hard time eating it.  I made it like a whole milk type.  She only ate 3 ounces of it tho, so i am hoping that she is full.  She hasn't been fussy about being hungry but lets just see.  
Its Saturday and we stayed home today and watched college football all day.  Now I'm watching TCN.  Its a Country Music station that plays music videos 24/7.  Literally.  I made a HUGE thing of Nachos for Stephen and I to eat tonight.  I felt like nachos so we had nachos lol.  We couldn't finsh em either.  We only got half way thru them and we were both stuffed! lol.  They sure were good as hell tho.
Tomorrow is Sunday and we aren't doing anything either but watching some pro football and I will get my paper and clip all the coupons and try to finish laundry!

Yulp we tore that up! lol

11/11/11

Ok, So I have no idea why everyone is all excited about tomorrow.  I think its just another day.  I mean so what its 11/11/11... Tomorrow I have a doctor's appt to see my Psychiatrist.  I hope that they put me on something that is going to help me and not make me feel like a zombie and that isn't going to make me feel sick either.  Not looking forward to it either.  I have to be there at 9 am. Thats to early to be out and about.
Well I got bitched at for adding people on my FB by Stephen.  IDK what his problem is.  He turned off my phone and the cable as well and now he is telling me that I have to walk tomorrow to my doctors appt, we will see how that goes. 
Nadia is doing good.  She turned 2 months old on the 9th (Wednesday)  She is trying to sit up and she is moving around a lot too.  She is also getting to be a chunckster too.  She's been downing a 6 ounce bottle at almost every feeding.  She is also starting to sleep longer! WOOT WOOT!  I'm excited about that. 
Anyways I dont have much to say on here because I guess I am full of drama.. Well Im out for now. 

Yall have a good day.  :)

Another week gone by

Well its now Monday the 7th of November.  

The last week has been very hectic and not so grand at all.  Stephen and I had a very big fight which ended in the cable getting turned off and my cell phone being turned off on the 11th.  (bullshit)  Things are still very rocky and I feel as if we are just living together as room mates and nothing more really.  We rarely say I love you nor do we kiss each other often at all.    I was told the only reason I am here is because of Nadia... Not something that makes you feel very welcomed and loved at all.   I was also told to jump off a bridge and also called a lazy fat bitch.. not very nice at all.  

Also my mother,.... I no longer talk to.  I am considered full of 'drama'.  Not something you tell your daughter.  I have always felt a let down to her.  My brothers get more of her attention and things done for them.  I feel as if im not good enough at all... idk.  

I guess im done on here for now..

Well, well..
I didn't get to write all that I wanted to write yesterday because my show was on and I wanted to get off real fast.  Well now I am bored and I thought that I would share some updates with yall that have been going on in my life. 

Starting off Nadia is now 7 weeks old and is getting so big.  She is starting to coo and make all kinds of weird/cute noises.  I just love them.  She can now recognize our voices and when she see's our faces she gets excited and smiles really big.  She has already grown out of some of her clothes.  Sleeping is stil in issue with her.  She still has her days and nights mixed up a little bit.  She is getting better at it and is starting to sleep thru the night a little bit.   Still not all the way tho.  Hopefully she will soon. 

 

Stephen and I had out first outing the other night by ourselves.  We dropped Nadia off at her Grandparents house and we went to the Casino for the Hunting Moon Pow Wow.  It was a good time.  It was really nice to have that time to ourselves.  We missed Nadia tho.  There were a lot of babies there and it just made us miss her even more.  We got her a baby blanket a shirt from there.  I mean she is our little Indian Doll.  :)

Hunting Moon Pow Wow

Another update that I have to share with yall is that I am finally in Therapy and seeing a psychiatrist.  I started to see them last week and I guess they said that I have severe anxiety and Manic Depression.  Lovely.  I go every week to Therapy,  I am hoping that this is going to help me.  People have told me that I need it.   

Daffodil sleeping weird! haha!

Halloween

HALLOWEEN!  

Yes, Halloween!  I love Halloween!  This year was Nadia's first Halloween and she was a bunny!  I went as a pirate and of course Stephen didn't dress up because he is no fun.  Yulp, no fun.  Well since Halloween was on a Monday they had trick or treating on Sunday.  Well we didn't get to do that because it was raining and nasty out.  I really wanted to take her out trick or treating but I guess some things dont work like that.  

Well on saturday night I went out with Carley and Aleah to a bar that they used to go to all the time.  it was really nice to get out of Milwaukee and go to a small town.  It felt great actually.

So we went to a few bars and then at 9:30 this small town out in the middle of nowhere had a Thriller production in the middle of their downtown.  They shut it all down and did Thriller and a couple songs from Rocky Horror Show.  It was AMAZING!  I loved it!  Next year i would love to do it.  I think that it would be a blast.  Carley and Aleah want to do it also.  =]

Anyway,  Stephens birthday was on Saturday as well and I told him that if he wanted to go out that he could but he didn't want to, oh well...

I am going to finish this up because my show is on, Sons of Anarchy!

Fall

Oh my!  It has been awhile since I posted anything!  I am so sorry lol!  I have been busy with the wee one and trying to get everything back to normal around here.  Thats a hard thing to do.
Anyways!
Yes fall has arrived and the weather is getting cooler and the days shorter.  The leaves are turning to their wonderful colors.  I love when they change. Its so gorgeous.  I wish I could get some photos but we never leave this damn place.  I hate it so much.
O well.  Nadia is doing ok. She has to be at least 10 lbs now.  She has been eating like crazy lately.  She is up to 5 ounces now.  We had to up her feeding because she wasnt getting full and fussing for a bottle an hour later.  Not fun.
Well I have been getting my headache back again.  YAY me... Not.
They are a pain in the ass and I wish I didn't get them.
What else is there.....
Stephen and I have been fighting again and it feels like we are growing apart.  We barely talk and he never tells me that he loves me.. I have to say it first and when he says it I dont think that he means it, not like he did when we got together.  I am almost miserable.  Hell I am... I want to go back home to IN.  I miss it there.  I miss all my friends and all my family.  I feel like I never got to live my 20s and now I am 26 and my life is dull and boring... Yes I have 3 wonderful girls but hell I didn't get to go out to the bar like my brothers did and still do.  I feel like a HUGE disappointment to my family.. They are so proud of Lee and Cory.. Never once have I been told that.  Never..  You know why.  Because I havent done anything but be a screw up.. Yulp.  Im a screw up.
Everyone tells me don't screw this up and don't screw that up.. You know what.  Its not just all my fault!  I am so sick of it being my fault.. That is all I hear.
Im tired of it and im not taking it anymore.  Yes I know I am a screw up.  So what.  I guess I will always be one and never have a happy marriage and family..

Sorry to disappoint you all....

Stressed..

Its been a few since I have wrote a blog.  I am sorry to those of you that actually read my blog.  I have been so busy with Nadia and trying to get the house work caught up with.  I dont think I have gotten anything caught up since we have been home from the hospital.  From trying to get some sleep and Nadia being really fussy the last couple of days nothing has gotten done.  We did get her photos taken and got them back.  They were so good.  I will post them one day when I scan them and what not.  Right now its Saturday night and I finally got Nadia to sleep and I am able to relax and try to get rid of this headache that I have had the last two days.  Not fun at all.  Especially when you have a baby screaming in your face.

I have been having problems with my emotions lately.  I have been very depressed and stressed out.  My hormones have been running really wild lately.  One min i will be fine and the next I dont want to be around any people at all.  Stephen hasn't really helped with it at all.  All he wants to do is sit around INSIDE the house and I like to get out and at least go to the park.  Hell even when we do go out he gets an attitude problem or something.  he never talks to me anymore and just sits on his computer.  Ya he helps with Nadia but he doesn't help to make me somewhat happy.  Well on my Birthday (which was on the 2nd of October) he did get me an awesome digital picture frame that has a lot of cool little settings on it and what not.  I love it.  That made my day.  It was really sweet of him to get that for me.  I just wish that I could get something for him for his birthday.  This is why I would love to have a job but he doesn't want me to get a job.  Which I have no idea why.  Its not like he is working at all. 

Oh ya on that topic.  He went to his doctors on the 4th and they told him that he cant work for another month again.  He starts physical therapy on this monday.  I do hope that it gets better because I am sick of him just laying around the house and being a grump because he can't work anymore.  Its real annoying.  I know that Im not always the happiest person to be around but it would be nice to get outside and get some fresh air.  O well.  So is my life I guess. 

Im going to go for now and try to relax some more.  My heads killing me. 

Night yall

yulp..

So I havent been on here much due to the fact that I have a newborn that needs my every min of attention.  She has been growing and eatting like crazy.  Some nights she is fussy and keeps us up and then other nights she is so quiet and precious.   The other day I got her all dressed up in her Packers gear and took some photos.  I shall show you some here...

 

 

 

She started to get a lil fussy and tired after awhile so I will have to take some more next time.  

It hasnt been a great week this week.  My birthday is on Sunday and I know what is going to happen.  I am going to be sitting here with Nadia and Stephen is going to be asleep all day.  I wont be with friends or with family.  I will be here sitting on my ass not doing a damn thing.  No one to make me dinner or give me a small break or even wish me a happy birthday.  

Stephen and I's relationship has been on the rocks lately as well.  We have been at each others throats and its really hurting our relationship a lot.  We no longer sit next to each other on the couch or even sleep next to each other in the bed.  He is up all night and sleeps all day.  I sleep at night and im up all day without him.  We never leave the house and I feel like I never see him anymore unless he is asleep.  It is getting really hard and I am getting very depressed about it.  I know that its hard because we are both stressed and over tired, but our relationship shouldn't be going down the drain.  I know couples that have a baby and are more in love then before they had a baby.  Not us.  We are suffering and I'm scared.  I dont want to be on my own and be a single mother again, so I am stuck here.  I am stuck here suffering thru a relationship that keeps going downward.  I don't know what to do anymore.  I am lost.

Well, Well, Well...

Well, lets just say that I am starting to feel old LOL!

My birthday is on this up coming Sunday (Oct 2).  I will be 26. Ya I know that isnt old at all but I don't feel like I did when i was a teenager.  I don't have the energy like I had either.  I wish I did so i could do things that I love (frog hunting, hiking thru the woods, climbing trees, etc..). O well.  I can try to do them.  aha 

Well I just thought that I would mention that on here.  I need to go because the wee one is waking up.  :) Later yall

A Lil Frustrated at the Moment..

Well I am going to apologize in advance for venting/ranting, but this is the only way I think is healthy enough to get it out....

   Well it is midnight here in Milwaukee and I have been up for over 13 hours and I am starting to wear down.  Stephen told me earlier that he needed a "break" because his arm hurt and that he couldn't pick up and hold Nadia.  I was pissed when he told me this, because, not only am I still in pain and extremely sore but, im the one that has to stay up and take care of her and everything else while he is awake playing on his computer all night. This means that I have to get up with her ever other hour tonight and tomorrow and clean the house along with doing laundry like always.  I am the one left to do everything.  Lucky me, right?  NO not at all. I am sick of the only one pulling my weight around here.  He isn't working so he can do some shit around here.  Am I wrong?  If so, please tell me why.. 

All I ask for is a little help.  Our house is a mess and unorganized and it is really stressing me out.  Hell everything is stressing me out.  Having anxiety, bi polar and depression doesn't help anything either.  I had an panic attack earlier today and it wasnt a small one either.  All this excess stress and worry is making all my anxiety to come back when I had it under control.

Not to mention that I just break out crying for no reason at all and Stephen thinks nothing of it.  Doesn't ask why or whats wrong anymore.. He just is like are you crying again... ya idk.  I just wish that things would get better. 

We don't even cuddle anymore or sleep next to each other anymore.  He sleeps on the couch and I sleep in the bed alone.  We rarely kiss anymore and he never holds my hand anymore in public.  Hell we never leave the freaking house anymore.  He never wants to just go for a walk or go to the beach anymore.  I feel like our relationship is going down the drain and I don't know how to save it anymore..  

I really don't wanna lose him because I still do love him terribly and don't think I could go on without him in my life.  He and Nadia is all I know now.  I have no family and barely any friends here, (hell I don't even hang out with them at all) so him and his family are all I know here.   I am just scared I guess.  I have been crying a lot lately and I think that I am getting PPD (Post Pardum Depression)on top of what I have....Great,  just what I need.  More meds to take...

Well I am going to go for now because Nadia is finally asleep after an hour of crying and fussing.  I need to TRY and get some sleep.  Night Yall

A to Z of ME!!!

Well I found this little questionnaire on my lovely cousins Blog.  I love these kind of things so I took it and I am going to answer it.  :)

I found my A to Z from Danielle over at Simple Sapphire CHECK HER OUT and Link up!

A - Age: 25 (26 on the 2nd of OCT.)
B - Bed size: I have a queen size
C - Chore that you hate: Cleaning out the cat box.. ewww.. lol
D - Dogs: Well if you count my moms dog then one.
E - Essential start to your day:   COFFEE!!!!!!
F - Favorite color: oh lordy.  I have many.  I think Pink, Black, Orange, Green
G - Gold or Silver: White Gold
H - Height:  5' 4"
I - Instruments you play:  I played the flute in Middle and High School.
J - Job title:  Stay at home mama
K - Kids: I have a 4 yr old, 2 yr old and a new born that is 2 weeks today. (all girls lol)
L - Live:  Milwaukee, WI
M - Mother’s name:  Cheryl
N - Nicknames:  Ash, Sis, Re Re
O - Overnight hospital stays:  After giving birth and when I had tonsillitis.
P - Pet peeves: Men that wear their pants to tight or to lose, Men that sag to their ankles, Dirty dishes in the sink.
Q - Quote from a movie: I like too many movies to quote just one.
R - Right or left handed:  Right
S - Siblings:  I am the middle child and only girl.  I have an older brother and a younger brother. They are both in the Military.
T - Time you wake up:  i usually wake up around between 6am and 8am.  Depending on what time Nadia wakes up in the morning.
U - Underwear:  haha I love cotton boy short kinda undies. 
V - Vegetable you hate:  Brussel Sprouts and cooked spinach.  I will eat spinach raw but not cooked. yuck!
W - What makes you run late:   I am a mother of three.  I am never on time...
X - X-Rays you’ve had: Neck, Chest, Shoulder, Ankle
Y - Yummy food that you make: Biscuits and Gravy, Steak, Mashed taters, pancakes, etc...
Z - Zoo animal: Leopards, foxes, penguins lol.  I LOOOVE animals!   :)

My Week...

Ahhhh,  Last time I posted anything I was in the hospital on 9/11.  Well, I am home and have been home since Monday.  Nadia and I had to stay an extra day in the hospital due to her biliruben count.  She had to be on the lights another night. Luckily, it went down and we went home on that late morning.  It was a long day after that.  She has been good and very sweet.  Last night and a night before she was extremely fussy.  I think what it was is that she was overly tired and just wanted to be held up by my chest so she could hear my heart beat, as soon as I did that she stopped crying and went right to sleep. 
I, myself, have been overly tired myself and I haven't had a good nights rest since I had her.  I knew that this would happen but I didn't know I would feel horrible.  I have a scratchy throat and have been coughing a lot.  I think it could be smoke from the MN fires that have been going on.  A few days ago we were under an sir quality alert, telling people to not go out in it.  I believe that might be it because I get really bad Fall allergies.  Hopefully that is all it is, I can't afford to come down with something with Stephen still not able to use his arm. 
Anyways that is all for now.  We haven't done anything at all.  All I know is that I need to clean this house but I know that it will not get done.

oh well. lol.  I hope that everyone has a great weekend!

Never Forget

It is officially 10 years since that tragic day in our history.

I am watching all the memorials on the TV in the hospital.  I still can not believe that its been this long already.  I still remember being in High School getting ready for a Math test when a teacher came in and took our teacher out in the hall way and she came back in the room running to the TV and turning it on.  Needless to say we did not take the test that day.  We watched in awe as our country was being attacked by terrorist.  The rest of the day school was nothing but going from classroom to classroom just watching CNN.  

I was really scared and didn't know what to think.  I got home and kept watching the televison.  I will never forget.  My brothers are fighting for this country.  I am very proud of them and still get nervous when I hear or see photos of the places over seas that they post.  

I just want to say GOD BLESS THE USA and may all the souls that lost their lives on this day 10 years ago and for all the souls lost along the way in this war REST IN PEACE.  

GOD BLESS.

Nadia Evelyn is HERE!!

It is 7 in the morning and I just had some breakfast.  Sitting here sipping on some coffee (something I haven't been able to have during pregnancy).  I am up in the hospital right now.  Nadia was born on Sep 9, 2011 at 2:28am at 7lbs 2oz and 19 1/4ins long.  She has dark dark hair and A LOT of it as well!

About 10mins after she was born

  She is currently sleeping and being a good baby.  She was a little fussy last night, not bad tho.  She wasn't screaming or crying, just little whines and whimpers.   Everything went fine in the labor department, although I didn't get numb on my left side from the epidural because I went from 3cm to 10cm in like 30mins.  I pushed for a good hour to almost 2 hours.  She was faced the wrong way and I guess her arm was up by her head, so she was being very stubborn and didn't want to come out.  :)  We got her out tho.  Stephen got to cut the cord and hold her.  He is doing extremely well with holding her and he even got to feed her!!  She just lays on his bad arm all cuddled up.  Its so darn cute!

All snuggled up in Daddys arms trying to eat :)

Just relaxing :)

Myself, I am doing ok.  I am a little sore and still get a little light headed when I stand to long.   I have been so hungry too!  I am like dang!  I'm not going to like pig out either!  I don't wanna gain weight! LOL.
Well I am going to go for now.  I just thought that I would do a little post and let everyone know what is going on.

Well I hope that yall have a great weekend!

Well Well.  It is Thursday!  Which means that it is the First game of the Football Season! WOOHOO!
To make matters even better the Packers and the Saints are playing here in WI at Lambeau Field!  I have been watching the TODAY SHOW all morning and they are up in Green Bay atm for the Kick Off tonight.  Its going to be a good game!  I know that I am from Indiana and I should be for the COLTS.  Don't fret I am still a HUGE Colts fan but, ever since I have moved here I have been watching a lot of the Packers games and they are really exciting.  The Packer fans are nuts as well.  They go ALL out on everything with tailgating and drinking to the crazy outfits that they wear to the games.
I am proud to say that I am becoming a Cheese Head.  Yes.  It is true.  I mean cmon I am practically married to a cheese head.  He is a HUGE Packers fan, as we speak right now he is asleep on the couch with his Packer blanket.

Well on another note.  I go into the doctor today for my 39 week checkup.  We are going to see what he says about inducing me.  I have been in  a lot of pain and I have talked to nurses at the hospital and they have told me that if my cervix is soft or whatever he will more then likely induce me.  Last week i have dilated 1cm.  I do hope that he induces me.  Im real tired of being pregnant.

ANYWAYS!  I hope that everyone watches the game tonight on NBC!!

GO PACK GO!!

~My Weekend~

Well, its about 9pm here in WI.  I am just reclined in one of our recliners just relaxing and watching some Star Wars on Spike.  It is Labor Day and Stephen and I have done nothing all week and weekend. 

Poor guy is still in pain and she wants some love so she just laid on him.

We have been cleaning and trying to get everything done and organized for Nadia to come.  We have everything that we need besides a diaper bag, swing, and a bouncer.  We don't really need those things but I would love to have them because it makes life so much easier, ya know. 
Saturday it was a very, very lazy day.  It rained most of the day and was humid and kinda sticky, so we just laid around yet again and didn't do anything but watch TV and play on our computers.   That is all about all we can do now, since he can't drive or go anywhere due to his meds and me because yet again I am on bedrest and not suppose to be up and about everywhere. 

Even Daffodil was being lazy on Saturday.

On Sunday (yesterday) it was so nice out that we opened up the house and did some house work around the place.  Stephen helped me pull out the couch and I picked up the area rug and swept behind the couch and under the area rug along with the whole living room again.  Also moped and cleaned the kitchen.  Stephen's good buddy, Tony, came by with his son and stayed for a little bit and chit chatted with him.  I think that it was good for him (Stephen) to have someone come over and spend some time with him.  He is getting kinda down in the dumps. 

On his computer playing some games.

Today is Monday and Labor Day.  Stephen's mom and I went to the mall to JC Penny's because she wanted to go and get this steam mop that was on sale there.  We got there and she got the last one!  (so lucky!)  We also walked around a bit and looked in other stores at all the cute baby clothes and Halloween and fall decor.  It was a good time and a great way to get out of the house.  I was hurting at the end of our 3 hour excursion out at the mall.  I was glad to get home and relax.. I do believe that is how my contractions have started tonight.  They aren't to intense but they are still hurting, so I am sitting around with my feet up. 

Well I do hope that everyone had a great weekend and stayed safe during it.  

Happy Fall Everyone!

Friday Night

Its a Friday night and Stephen and I have not done a thing.  We have been sitting around and sleeping.  We are both not aloud to be up and moving around.  I am on bedrest til I go into labor (which will be anyday now) and Stephen isn't suppose to be moving around to much because he had surgery on his arm on Wednesday.
The surgery went well and he is still in some pain but the swelling in his hand has gone down a lot since his surgery.  He has to wear the cast/ splint for 2 weeks.  He then will go back in and start his physical therapy.  I am so thankful that workmans comp is paying for all this and 2/3 of his wages.  We could never afford this at all.

I, myself, have been having contractions.  I went to the doctor yesterday and I am 1cm dilated when he checked me.  I am sure that I will go any time now.  I have been having contractions on and off for two days now and they are getting worst.  I do hope she does come soon so I can start to feel like myself and heal up myself so I can take care of Stephen and Nadia without feeling like crap.
Any way.  It has been a week and I will be glad when all this is over and we can start anew.

Well we are currently at the hospital right now.  We got here around 11 30 and have been waiting sicne then for him to go into surgery.  He went back to the O.R. around 2ish.   Now I am in the waiting room and its about to hit 3.  The doctor told us it will take about an hour to an hour and a half for him to reattach the ligament/muscle to his bone.  He will then go into the first half of recovery where he will be watched by a nurse.  After he feels a little better they will take him out of the first half of recovery and put him in the second half where I will be able to be with him and he will be able to get some food and something to drink since he hasnt had anything since 11 last night.  He is probably starved.  The doctor did tell us that he will be in a splint with a type of wrapping for about 2 months. He will also be going thru physical therapy as well so that he can get full use of his arm again. 
I am nervous and scared at the same time.  I am scared that I will go into labor anyday from all the extra stress and worry.  I do how ever have a doctors appointment tomorrow and I will be sure to ask him when he thinks I could go and maybe get a stress test if I can get one this late in the pregnancy.  He could induce me if I am going thru to much stress.  I hope not but yet again I hope he does because I am so done with being pregnant and ready for her to come into this world.  I know that Stephen wont be much help at all and I know that I am going have to take care of him and Nadia along with our new cat Daffodil.  I am already exhausted and worn out from having to run for Stephen everywhere and doing things for him but, you do what you have to do for the ones that you love and I love him and will help him with whatever he needs and wants.  In the end I hope that if something like this happens to me that he will be there to help me out as well.  I know he would. 
Well I am going to head off of here for now and wait for the doctors to come out here and tell me how he is doing and when I can go back and see him. 
Hope yall have a great day.
Ima try my best to have a decent day.

News..

Well we went to the specialist and found out that his arm is alot worst then what we thought that it was.  He has to get Surgery... He goes tomorrow...I am so nervous and scared.  I do hope that everything will be fine and Ok.  Im going to be staying up there with him thru the whole thing.  When he goes in for prep and in the recovery room as well.  He is going to be in a cast for a few months and out of work for the rest of the year at least.  Luckily he will get workmans comp and they are paying for all the medical things as well, so this is a good thing I guess.
Just pray for him people.

Nervous..

Today is the day that Stephen and I head to the specialist for his arm.. I am so nervous about this.. I am hoping that they say he wont need surgery but, its always a possibility.  I really hope and pray that he doesn't have to get it.  The last few days he has been in a lot of pain and has to sleep on the couch and sleep sitting up because his arm hurts him to bad to lay flat, so needless to say we both have been having  a little lack of sleep.  Him, because he has to sleep like that and myself because, I can't sleep alone that great and I sleep in the bed.   I miss sleeping next to my hubbers.  :(

Well as for the pregnancy I am due in 17 days.  I am really hoping that she comes soon!  I am so sore and tired of being pregnant.  I officially can no longer bend over and it hurts to get in and outta bed.  *sigh*

anyways just pray for us.  I do hope things turn out ok...

Aug 27th 2011

Well it has been one of those weeks.  It has been up and then it went WAY down.  

I will start with the bad first.

On friday afternoon I was just laying on the couch relaxing and about to take a small nap.  My phone starts to ring and I look and its Stephen.  I answer thinking he is just calling to tell me if I need anything on his way home.  Nope, that is not the case.  First he asks me if I am dressed and took a shower.  I say no why.  What are we going to do.  He then takes a deep breathe and tells me not to freak out.  Well of course when someone tells you not to freak out you basically start to freak out.  He told me that he thinks that he broke his arm at work.  I started to freak out.  I yelled and started to get scared.  He was at work and had the wheel barrel full of concrete and he slipped and fell right on his left arm.  He was taken to the Hospital out where he was working which is like an good hour drive away from our house.  I didn't have the car and I was freaking out and crying.  I had to wait for his friend to come and get me so i could go out to the yard to get the car and then drive all the way out to the hospital where he was.  By the time all that was said and done he was released.  Thank God that he didn't break anything but he did however rip/tear his biceps.  We wont know fully until he goes to a specialist next week sometime, but until then he is out of work and thinks that he will now be going back to work at all for the rest of the year, because by the time that he is healed it will be that time that everyone will be getting laid off.  Needless to say I am stressed and worried about things.  

Nadia will be here anytime now and its just going to be so hard taking care of Stephen and Nadia.  This is the first full day of him being hurt and not being able to do anything and I am exhausted.  I had to do all the running and cleaning.  I feel bad for Stephen tho because he is in so much pain that it is so hard for him to move and do anything.  Just showering is hard for him.  I had to help him with that.  

*sigh*

Its going to be a long fall and rest of the summer.  I just see it now.

Well onto something less depressing.

We adopted a cat named Daffodil on Thursday.  (the day before Stephen got hurt guuuh)

She is one of the sweetest cats that I have had.  She loves to lay on the couch and cuddle with me and Stephen.  Luckily Stephen isn't allergic to her at all.  She is 3 yrs old and is a mix short hair breed.  They call her a Dilute Torti color.  I just love her coloring.  I took her to the vet today to get her wellness checkup and she passed.  Thankfully.  One less thing that I have to worry about.  

relaxing.

sleepy kitty.

Another thing that isn't depressing.  I am officially full term.  If I go into labor now they would not sop it and Nadia will be here.  I am currently 37 weeks and 1 day.  I can feel her moving around and kicking and punching.  I have been having those Braxton hicks contractions and they are getting annoying.   I have had them all day off and on.  Nothing to be concerned about tho.. 

Well not yet at least.  Lets hope that all this stress with Stephen doesn't send me into early labor.

37 weeks even in this photo.

Please pray for us.

Blog Award

So I have been slacking on this Blog Award the last few days!  

But I am so happy that my cousin and great friend over at Simple Sapphire gave me this Award!

The RULES of the AWARD:
The Liebster Award is meant to connect us even more and spotlight NEWER BLOGGERS who have less than 200 followers (but hopefully not for long). The rules are:


1.Show your thanks to the blogger who gave you the award by linking back to them. 
2.Reveal your top 5 picks and let them know by leaving a comment on their blog.
3.Post the award on your blog.
4.Bask in the love from the most supportive people on the Internet – other writers. 
5.And best of all – have fun and spread the karma! 

Here are my top 5 in no particular order at all.  They are all great blogs and bloggers.

1.  Unborn Art This blog is a great blog that i follow because of its wonderful photography!

2.  Word on the Wind Another great blog and blogger.  Gives you words of our great Lord Almighty.

3.  The Garden of My Life A blog that talks about life and Scrapbooking.  It is my mother but her Scrapbook pages are just wonderful!

4.  My Discovered Thoughts Here she talks about her life, son, etc...

5.  365 of My Life's Garden is another Scrapbook blog that I love and is another one of my mothers.  

I do not have a lot of blogs that i follow that have 200 or less followers but here are the ones that do.  I hope that you enjoy them and check them all out.  

Thank you again Danielle for the award!!!

A Little behind on things.

Well I have been behind on somethings on here on my blog.  I recently received an award from the wonderful Danielle over at Simple Sapphire .  I will post it here sometime today, but right now I am so exhausted that I am going to go and lay back down for a bit.

Very Exciting!

Well today Stephen surprised me by calling me and telling me to get ready that we were going to go look at cats for me to have.  I have been depressed and lonely with him working so late and so long.  I have been saying how much I have been wanting a cat or some kind of pet to keep me company and to cuddle with at night and when he isnt home.  Well we went to the Elmbrook Humane Society to look at cats because cats are cheaper and are very easy to take care of and can cuddle with you on the couch easier then a dog can, so we went to look.  I fell in love with a cat named Fluffy.  She reminded me of my former cat that was at my parents house named Belle.  She was a different color but, her attitude was the same.  Unfortunately there was a couple that got to her before we did.  I wanted to still take a look at her so we did.  We also looked at a cat named Clemintine that reminded me of Neo because she had that sassy attitude that Neo can have but, we looked at a gorgeous cat named Daffodil.  She is a dilute torti mix breed cat.  Very loving and curious.  She is 3 years old and such a doll.  I can't wait to get her tomorrow.  We will pick her up when the Humane society calls us and sets a time to come and get her.   I am just so excited about this.  I have the best fiance anyone could ask for.  He is very allergic to cats and he is doing this for me to make me happy.  I am just so grateful to have him in my life.  He also said that he will clean the cat box for me until Nadia comes so I don't have to, because pregnant women aren't suppose to be around it.  He is the best.  I love him.  
Well here is a few photos of Daffodil

 

 I cant wait!!!

36 weeks and 2 days

Today is Sunday and I am 36 weeks and 2 days.  I am so ready to have this child.  I am getting really sore and having pressure on my bladder all the time now.  I feel like I have to pee just about ever 2 hours. 

36 weeks and 2 days

We went to see Harry Potter last night and I had to go to the bathroom so bad that I could no longer hold it, so i had to get up in one of the most important parts and run to the bathroom.  I seriously hate it.  I just hope that she comes soon.  Next week I will 37 weeks and to doctors now that is a full term baby.  Some doctors induce their patients around that time if the baby is to big and if they are in a lot of pain.  Idk if he will do that to me since I have been in a lot of pain.  We will see tomorrow when I head to the doctor.
After tomorrow I will be going to the docs ever week.  It does mean that i am in the last leg of it.  We still need to get a car seat and I pray that Stephen gets his unemployment check this week. 
He has been laid off yet again this week and he thinks that he will be laid off again this upcoming week, depending on the job... Lovely...
Im so stressed about it.
So is life tho..

Stocking Up!

Yes, it is that time of the year where its time to buy veggies and fruit and preserve them or freeze them for the winter time!  Well Stephen and I went to the Farmers Market again and stocked up on Corn, green beans and blueberries =]  I cleaned and cooked the corn, cleaned the blueberries and froze them and did the same with the beans.  woot woot.  So now my freezer is full of veggies and some blueberries.  I think next week we will go and get some more blueberries or maybe even peaches.  hmm Im not sure yet.  We need some more beans tho. 

Blueberries mm =]

The blueberries where very good and some where so huge! woohoo!!

sweet corn =]

The corn was really good.  I fixed some of it one night for dinner.  I still wish I could get my hands on some Indiana Sweet corn from back home.  I love it.  Well we are good for now.

Oh I also got most of the Nursery done.  I got all the clothes organized and the crib together with a cute wall decal of a tree.  I just need to get some shelves so that I can put some of the things on them so they aren't sitting out on the dresser. 

Baby Shower

Diaper Cake!

Well since I didnt post photos from the Baby Shower yesterday I'd figure  I would post them here.  =]

Enjoy them =]

Sitting on the porch eatting some food =]

Playing some games

Opening some presents.  That is Sophia helping me.  (Stephens 2nd cousin)

Some of the presents after we got home hah

Hah Stephens diaper changing kit!

Ello Poppets

Well I didn't post this weekend.  Sorry for that.  Today was the baby shower that Stephens mother threw for us.  It was all his family and a few family friends.  My mother and grandma couldn't make it due to some situations.  I totally understood and wasn't sad about it.  Well we had a good time and got a lot of good things for Ms. Nadia.  I am tired and sore.  My back is really killing me and I have had to stop what I was doing so I could lay down and put my feet up so my back would stop hurting.  Well its not really helping so here in a min I will more then likely go and take some meds my doc gave to me for it. 

I am wired tho.

hah

Anyways. 
I am currently watching a sweet show on National Geographic channel called Witnessed : Tornado Swarm 2011.  It shows what people have taped on their video cameras and or phones of the tornadoes that went thru.  Its horrible to see these.  Right now its showing the Tuscaloosa and its so sad to see what they went through and to see all the devastation.  =[

35 weeks

 

35 weeks even in this photo!  I am so ready to have her and see her.  I so hope she has Stephens eyes and skin tone!  

 

Frustrated

Yesterday was a day of frustration.  I was having a really bad day.  First the toilet broke and I couldn't get it fixed myself, then i was getting very upset over the dryer not working right and not warming up to dry the clothes.  It still dried the clothes but it takes twice as long.  Then i was trying to put the crib together and when I was trying to do that my engagement ring broke and the jewel fell out.  I called up Stephen at work bawling my eyes out because I couldn't take it anymore. 

He actually came home early (about 1pm) and took me out of the house to get some fresh air in the dump truck that he was driving.  We dropped off the truck and got the car.  We then went to Cricket to see about new prepaid phones that will be cheaper then what we are paying now with Us Cellular.  Stephen and I talked to the guy and we figured it out, that if we get those phones through them we will be saving 80 or more bucks a month. Woohoo!   After we left the phone shop we went to the Farmers Market in West Allis (down the street).  It was really neat.  They had all kinds of veggies that I haven't seen before and everything is locally grown.  We got some herbs and some HUGE sweet corn on the cob.  The lady that we bought the herbs from even gave us an  extra plant for free!  She was so nice!.  

After that we had to run to Menards to get some little pots and potting soil so that I could put my herbs in.  Stephen even told me to pick out a flower plant to put in one of my huge pots that I have.  I picked out some yellowish-red fall mums.  They are very pretty and full. 

 

We got home and I planted them and watered them and then I took a shower and relaxed before i started dinner.  All in all I was having a crappy day but, Stephen made it better with his humor and just his loving nature.  He did fix the toilet and my ring.  He told me that we will get the dryer fixed in the next few weeks.  The crib he can get done in less then an hour.  

Well I hope that everyone has a Wonderful weekend!

Sunday

Sunday.. ahh.  Nascar and laziness.  Yes that is my day.  Well this whole weekend has been like this.  I didn't get any sleep last night yet again.  I believe it was 6 30 in the morning when i finally got to sleep.  I was woken up at 10 30am due to Stephens alarm going off.  I was not happy about that because I couldn't get back to sleep.  It took me so long to get to sleep and I was in a good one and it got disturbed.  Oh well I guess.

I took a nap.

Well we haven't done anything at all today but go get some ham and rolls at the local bakery and a paper so i can get my coupons out of the paper.  I have been very zombie like today.  I haven't felt like doing anything.  No cleaning, no cooking, nothing.  How ever I HAVE to do some laundry because we have so much to do because, if I don't do it, it wont get done.  Just like everything else.  O well i guess.

I have a doctors appt tomorrow.  I am 34 weeks and I think that I will start going every week now.  I am so ready for her to be here so I can have my body back.  I am so sore and just tired of feeling like this.  I am about to go nuts with everything.  My mom and Lilly will be here next weekend and I feel like the place isn't clean because I can't really get up and do to much with all the chemicals and me suppose to be off my feet as much as I can.  IDK.  I'm just stressed out. 

Stephen has been sick all weekend and I have been feeling very lonely and like I am here alone but I'm not.  He has been on his computer all weekend and hasn't really spent anytime with me.  :(  It has made me feel very unloved and lonely.  He didn't work on Friday and got off really really early on Thursday.  We are hoping that he gets called in tomorrow but we have no  idea what is going to go on with it.  I hope he doesn't get laid off because we can't afford it especially with Nadia going to be here in like a month.. I worry so much about losing the apt but, Stephen says that we wont because of our landlord being really understanding and knowing him since Stephen was just a baby.  Lets hope.  Thats all I can say....

Well I am off of here for now.  Going to finish watching my race.
GO JOHNSON!

Thursday Nights.

Thursday,  Oh what a boring and lame day this is.  I do hate Thursdays.  They are boring and seem to take forever to get over.   I really haven't done anything today but laundry and clean the kitchen a little bit.  Stephen got home around noon and doesn't work tomorrow.  Not good.  Im still stressing over this.  On top of that he is coughing shit up and has bad congestion in his chest and his nose is all stuffed up.  Needless to say he feels like poo.  It is probably from when he came home that one day soaked from head to toe with water.  That was a horrible day.  He got into it with a co worker and something went wrong at the job site and he had to jump in the hole and try to fix it with all the water coming out.  He told me that and I got really scared because that is how my father passed away.  Stephen told me he was sorry but that is how he is, when something goes wrong he jumps in right away to fix it.  *sigh*. 

Anywho.  We had the tour of the Birth Center yesterday.  The hospital is pretty and all but, it is really weird for me.  When I had my other two I was in one room the whole time and didn't have to move and the rooms had a fridge and were huge.  Here at this hospital we labor and deliver in one room and then after you deliver and recover a little bit they move you up to the next floor where you will stay 2-4 days depending on how you feel.  They have a nice nursery and all the staff is really really friendly and knowledgeable.  They even have a whirlpool rooms there that you can go into while you are in labor to relax.  I thought that was really nice and cool.  I probably won't use them because as soon as I can I will get the Epideral.  Stephen will get a pulled out couch to sleep on for when he stays with me.  Hell he might even just lay in the bed with me during the day to cuddle and just be close.

oh well,  I guess that everything will be alright in the end. 

If its not one thing, Its another thing...

I got a call this afternoon from my love Stephen.  He had some not so great news for me today.  He will more then likely will have to find another job.  There is no more work for the company that he works for to do, so by the end of the month or next month he will be laid off.  Great.  Nadia will be here around that time and now he is going to lose his job.  He will get unemployment but, that isn't going to get us through the winter time with a newborn and pay the bills.  Looks like I will have to get another job this winter when I didn't want too.  I was told I was going to stay home with Nadia and take care of her and the house but that is not looking like it is going to happen.  Its just our luck that this has happened at this time.  Im so stressed out right now about this.  We already live paycheck to paycheck with our bills and rent.  Now with a baby on the way and having to buy diapers, clothes, formula, and wipes.  Guh. 
This always seems to happen. 

Something good comes along and then something more horrible comes around.

So stressed out....